Tuesday, September 30, 2008

The Tea Party
















The Ronnefeldt “tilting” teapot.

Looking out through the teapot.....was wondering at the perspective this could give. hundreds actually....but its the 'placing' of the object that renders it a meaning. I find the objects conversant with one another, shutting out the world...what a tea party!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

A blasted mind

Another series of blasts.....what do they leave you with? two kinds of reactions in binary opposites - hysterical with fear, or the slump of a tired mind that says....I think i will sleep early today. I think the media should realize that most of their viewers are beginning to fall in the latter mode. Soon, the only people who will watch the images are the perpetrators themselves...which they do anyway...with glee...of the product they created, the script they wrote...So why watch? might as well sleep early, hoping that everyone is safe tonight and tomorrow....

Happy Teachers Day

On September 5th, I wished my daughters - 'Happy Teachers Day'. My elder one, looked at me puzzled...shrugged and walked away. She has resigned to the fact that her mother is just not 'usual'. She will someday understand that they are my best teachers. I learn the power of dignity, silence and tolerance from my elder daughter. How? let me narrate an incident....
On one of those usual, emotion-packed evenings, when i asserted my misplaced sense of motherhood, yelling and screaming at her, she suddenly broke down - 'Ma, i am lonely! I hate my school...I am teased about my christian surname, about eating non-vegetarian food...I hate my identity! I could have sunk beneath the earth at this....collecting myself, i asked for details...realized that she had been putting up with this for months, uncomplainingly...I went to school, spoke to her teacher.....and as i walked away from her class, she looked at me for reassurance...I realized, I must begin to play mother now...
My little one....just two and a half....received a reprimanding small pat on the bottom for being naughty...She stared at me, went to the corner and screamed till she turned blue...she kept saying, 'don't do this'...it shocked me...I realized that she was trying to teach me...to converse, to communicate without having to be harsh...she was trying to tell me that she will listen, but only if treated with respect.
These were lessons I learnt and realized that I must have subjected so many people to the same harshness that my children were making me aware of....Happy teachers day kids!

Mail 'likho' to accha likho, warna mat likho!!

Have you ever written bad mails? I have, several of them...really bad ones - linguistically, semantically, syntactically and semiotically! Have you ever felt guilty? I have....because they have connected me to a psychological world....made me see myself....So why the guilt? Bad mails come with a purpose! they are your best psychologists and you don't have to pay in paper currency...but you pay....and they are expensive....they make you buy months of unease and disquiet...confused? See! this is why i say, try not to write Bad Mails! At least i have learnt that good mails keep you straight jacketed....leave you with a lot less to mourn about. But wait a minute....are bad mails those floating karmic signifiers that happen 'anyway'? aaaargh!!!!